being Kazzy

I am feeling sad. I see chaos in the screen of my mind. My heart hurts. It's been like this for as long as I can remember. But I never paid attention to it. I was told I would only be loved if I suppressed it and pleased them. I started to feel unworthy of love. I stopped loving myself. I forgot how to love others in a true way. I am slowly being reminded of it by someone. I am remembering it is the most beautiful thing. Although the process can be messy at times. But I think it is important to remember that we are all human beings. And we make mistakes sometimes. But we should strive for love in life. It is what we are. We were born to love. It's what makes life all the more beautiful. True love is something I am becoming more aware of recently. And it makes me sad that many will be lost in the chaos of their minds to even be able to know it. But I have tasted it. It is sweet, it is kind, it is caring... It allows and accepts because that's all it knows to do. ...